Yes, repent and sin no more. Isn’t
that one of the main things these High Holydays are all about: sin
and repentance? This Shabbat, the Sabbath between Rosh Hashanah and
Yom Kippur, is even called the Sabbath of Repentance.
When I was a kid and learned about these things
in Hebrew school, I thought the whole idea was, you’ll have
to excuse me, stupid. Sin was serious stuff. Repentance was serious
stuff. But I was just a kid. Maybe I’d forgotten to clean up
my room, or called someone a name, or fought with my younger brother,
or told the teacher the dog ate my homework when we didn’t
even have a dog, or refused to eat my vegetables, or even all of
the above. Was any of that so terrible that I had to repent? I doubted
it.
I still do, and I doubt that most people have
done anything so terrible, either. I guess it’s possible that
someone here tonight is an axe murderer, or a car thief, or a big
time embezzler, but I doubt it. I’m sure all of us have done
things that were wrong, but not very serious things. Maybe it’s
the cumulative effect that requires repentance? I really don’t
think so. I don’t think it’s a matter of “accounting” and
that all the little sins add up to a big sin.
There are, of course, gradations of wrong-doing that operate in
every legal system. Stealing a car is bad. Stealing a skateboard
is still bad, but somewhat less bad. Stealing a glance at a good-looking
man or woman is even less bad, unless you go well beyond that while
you’re married or committed to someone else. Then that’s
cheating, not stealing.
The biggest breakthrough in human justice
came when we understood that the law must be applied equally to everyone,
and that punishment should in some way relate to the seriousness
of the crime. Before this, if a commoner murdered a noble the punishment
was death. The punishment for stealing a loaf of bread from a noble
was death. The punishment for insulting a noble was death.
We Jews are the ones who taught the world
much of our legal perspective and sense of justice. The Torah teaches. “Do
not show favoritism to the rich or to the poor.” “Justice,
justice shall you pursue.” “Let justice well up as the
waters, righteousness as a mighty stream.”
Just as the Torah taught about justice, the
Rabbis in the Talmud explored the gradations of wrongdoing. The most
common sin, chet, is like someone in an archery contest shooting
at the target, but missing the bull’s-eye. Such a person is
trying to do well, but like all of us, is fallible and sometimes
misses.
The next level of sin is avone, in which the
person who is supposed to be shooting the arrow from a distance of
fifty feet, inches up a bit to get a little closer and increase his
chances of winning. Such a person knows the rules and tries to get
around them.
The most serious level is called pesha. This is a person who flaunts
the rules and doesn’t even acknowledge that he is in any
way bound by them. Such a person doesn’t bother shooting
the arrow. He knocks the judge out, steals the prize money, and
runs away.
All of us have messed up at the first level.
Most of us, if we’re truthful, have at least flirted with the
second level a bit, especially around income tax time. I doubt that
any of us have sunk to the third level.
So what should we do? Are we incorrigible
sinners, black of heart, never to be trusted, not even by ourselves?
Hogwash! We’re not bad at all. Most of us are pretty good most
of the time. So what’s with this repentance stuff?
I think that little story I told you before
got it right: RE-PAINT AND THIN NO MORE! A bad pun, but a wonderful
idea. First, thin no more. Don’t cut corners, at home, at work,
with relatives, with friends. Get a life! Don’t dilute life
by failing to give your full attention, your full effort. The more
you do, the less of a life you’ll have. The more you dilute
life, the poorer you’ll be. The more thinner you use, the worse
anything you use it on will be. You’ll save nothing. The only
killing you’ll make will be your own happiness.
Second, remember that there’s always
someone watching. God, of course. People, too. With our high tech
record of every credit card transaction, of every bridge you cross
and toll you pay, of every phone call, of what you’ve watched
and what you’ve written, of what stores you’ve entered
and what intersections you’ve passed, it’s harder and
harder to hide anything. The best strategy is either to drop off
the face of the earth, or else have nothing to hide.
Lastly, paint and re-paint! Do you know what
I think we’re all guilty of? It’s not doing things that
are so wrong. It’s constantly missing opportunities for doing
things that are right, that make life sparkle and shine with love
and beauty and meaning. That’s what I think our Torah portion
on Yom Kippur is telling us when it says: U’vachartah BaChayim,
Choose life. It’s saying: Paint and re-paint!
In this week’s Torah portion, Moses sings a song in beautiful
poetry
Give ear, O Heavens. Let me speak.
Let the earth hear the words I utter… [Deuteronomy
32:1]
What’s he got to sing about? His
whole generation, including his brother Aaron, died during the wandering
in the wilderness. He himself knows he is about to die. Singing? Poetry?
What’s Moses doing?
He’s repainting. He’s
praising life, cherishing life, even the hard parts. The best attitude,
Moses is showing us, is gratitude and hope, no matter what. Everything
gets dingy after a while. Everything loses some of its luster. Everything
needs to be re-painted. Ultimately, everything dies. Be thankful that
when we’re gone, others will remain to keep painting after us.
While we’re here, we should be thankful
that we do have a paint job to do. Look for opportunities to do something
good: to offer a compliment, a hug, a kiss, a kind word, a pat on
the back, an unsolicited “I love you”, or “I really
care about you”, or “You’re a wonderful friend”,
or even something as inconsequential as “I’m really glad
to see you”, because it’s never inconsequential.
Let this be the Sabbath of re-paintance when
we learn to thin no more. Let these High Holydays be a time when
we truly choose life, a life that brings a shine to others’ eyes,
a smile to others’ faces, and a glow of satisfaction to our
own hearts.
Many are the loved ones who painted our
world with the brush of love and caring, and are no longer with us to
do so. In their memory, we dedicate these memorial plaques as a lasting
token of our love and respect. May their memories always be for a blessing.